Photo by Karen at French Skinny
Goal: Lose 35 pounds the French Skinny Way.
(In 6 months)
Lost: 2 pounds this week
Total lost so far: 31pounds
4 pounds to go.
That should make me so very, very happy. But I have to say there is a very strange phenomenon happening. I try on my clothes and nothing fits right. I have nothing to wear. Intellectually I say to myself "Oh poor you, your clothes are too big. Get over it!"
But, to be honest, I don't see it in the mirror. Shaboom told me she didn't really notice it when she was losing weight and I don't either.
I see it on the scale so it must be true.
Nothing in my closet fits, so it must be true.
People are telling me how skinny I look, so it must be true.
The truth is, I feel normal. Like I felt before I had my kid. Which is weird because I thought I felt normal before, but 31 pounds later I'm realizing that I wasn't where I thought I was.
I thought I'd mention this because my friend is going through the same thing. She has been doing the French Skinny with me and has lost 30 pounds. But she's not seeing it. She's sad because her clothes don't fit. I see her and she looks AMAZING, but she doesn't see it. I can't believe she can't be excited about it. But then again, I understand because I'm going through the same thing.
Today 4 and I picked many tomatoes. I made pasta sauce for days. While I was cooking I came to the realization that thin doesn't mean happy. Sometimes thin means saying goodbye to the comfortable. Sometimes getting what you want is sad.
Goodbye comfortable mom.
You were safe, funny and nice.
You've served me well for 4 years.
I'm just being honest.
I know that I will fit into my new life.
But it might take awhile.